Jamaica part 2

The love affair with Jamaica is over for me. Now the love can start. In the last week I have seen 2 brothers here struggle with there relationships as men and in a way I was really honored that they could fight in front of me. It was safe for them to show me there struggles and I could see the love that they had for each other and it was painful for both of them. For me it was when we were children and I would watch them fight. I had to laugh and feel great tenderness for all of us, as we are all grown men with wives, and they each have young ‘pickne’.

It seems to me that I have reinserted myself a little into Jamaican life. I can look at the good and bad and view things without the rosecolored glasses that has clouded my view of this country. I can move from behind the desperation and longing that is my experience as an immigrant to the United States. Possibilities of business and home ownership in this country are starting to appear. I will never regain what I lost but I can catch up, sync with this world and relax it seems.